now my life is sweet like cinnamon, like a fucking dream I'm living in

ewert and the two dragons- In the end, there's only love
 
(this song is so cute and it makes me happy and i've seen it live in a festival and it was raining and it was lovely and aww, they're estonians, so listen to them. i'm just helping out my baltic brothas out. they are lovely)
 

I've been quite sad for a time now,
but I'm happy to say that it changes today!
 
Because I met so many interesting people today. Designers, journalists, fashion people, bloggers.
 
And we talked about life and they told some stuff that I can't tell because it's kinda top-secret but not really but it maybe is.
 
(?!)
 
But this day made me understand my goals in life
and what I really want.
And those people (well, more like one lovely lady but you won't understand anyways. would take too long to explain what she is or how i got to meet all those people in the first place so okay) helped me to understand what I have to do to reach them.
 
And I'm so excited for life.
 
And it's Valentines day tomorrow/kinda in a couple of hours and I'm not even a bit sad that I'm single because I have the love for work and life and that's all I'm ever gunna need
 

And,
aaaaaahhh,
gaaaaahhhh!!
 

I have a couple of project's/work thingys in mind and I am so fuucking excited
gaaah

The Cure - Lovesong
Anna Waronker – Somebody’s watching me
 

Yeeey!
TWC!
Happy haha.
 
I wanted to write a bit more, but I understood that I won’t have time to write for a couple of days and I wanted to publish this the sooner the better.
So, yeah.
 
ENJOY
And tell me what you think!
 
I Included Eff @mclovinn Nic/Jill @emgeemtee and a little of Kat and Aimee!
 
SORRY FOR THE TYPOS THO
 

--

Alice Wonders
{TWC}

Thursday, 07.02.13 ;
 

Since I’m back in New Temple,
Everything felt different between Nathan and me.
 
I used to spend every moment of the day with him and charish it.
Now, it felt like I was trying to escape from his long hugs and love –
running back home to Effie and her pancakes.
 
He always asked me where I went,
not knowing of my home.
 
And it annoyed me,
thought it was ridicilous and I knew it,
it still did.
 
And for that strange reason,
I was happy he didn’t know about the life I had outside his love.
I was happy for the big secret I kept.
I was happy because I could call it mine.
 
Not his,
not even ours,
mine.
 

And it made me feel awkward and weird
Because I did love him.
 
And he made me a different person,
I just didn’t know if he made me a /better/ person.
 

Nathan;
 

“You alright?”
 
She didn’t even move
or say a word.
 
Just sat there, looking at nothing at all
but at the same time –
it felt like she saw everything.
 
Really, everything –
 
All of the lies, sadness, joy, lust.
 
Everything.
 
Sometimes,
It freaked me out.
 
But then I fell for her even more.
 

She looked over and smiled.
 
And I couldn’t believe my eyes
or my luck,
that the angelic beauty is mine.
 
And she loves me,
I knew that.
 
She was the one to say it first,
she was the one to say it the most.
 

Quickly, she got up
And started rushing around the room,
Gathering her clothes,
 
“I promised Eff to meet her today” She said
 
“I was planning on keeping you in bed all day today…” She smiled a rushed smile. No giggle.
“What time are you going to be back?”
 
“Oh, I think I’m going to stay at her place for the night.” Her face was pale.
 
“How does she even afford a place”
 
She shrugged
And smiled at a joke that only she knew.
Always remaining a mystery.
 

“I’ll meet you at the harbor tomorrow, yeah?”
 
”I’m not going this weekend”
 
She just nodded,
Never questioning what I did on the weekends I didn’t go to New Temple.
 
It’s not like she didn’t know –
She knows very well I’m dealing.
But it bothered me that she never asked me anything about it.
 
‘All you need is love’ by The Beatles started playing on the radio,
I wondered whether that was how she felt right now.
 
Back in Italy,
We would sing this song
And just, love.
 
I remember how she used to whisper in my ear the words of the song,
slightly laughing
and teasing.
 
I even remember how her hair was dancing in the wind,
splashing the night air with the smell of fresh strawberries.
 
Now her hair was in a bun,
yet I still could smell the weed in them.
 

She just smiled slightly,
and left.
 
Without saying goodbye
Or a kiss.
Without looking back.
 
I looked on the floor,
Where my jumper laid.
 
It was her favourite jumper,
She always had it with her.
 

I threw the lamp against the wall.
 

David;
 

I was in a club on a Thursday night only because
George wanted to ‘have some fun’ and ‘let go a bit’
 
I told him that we’re going to New Temple tomorrow anyway
but he just shrugged.
 
I guess he was looking for a muse,
since Kat was like a ghost –
you can never know when she’ll approach you.
 

And just as George was leaving the bar
And the lady bartender winked at me,
 
I saw the ghost of a girl I’ve been looking for myself for a long time.
 
There she was,
Dancing to dubstep beats
but somehow making every move look majestical.
 
A ballerina.
 
Alice.
 

She was floating in a red dress
And a black knitted cardigan.
Her blonde hair in the air.
 
Her dress was floating so much
That it reminded me of the blood boiling in my veins.
 
I looked around to see if she left the same impression for others,
But most of them were just looking at cheap looking girls breasts,
Unaware of the girl,
no,
/woman/, that made everything look magical.
 

She really did look like a woman now –
I didn’t see how she’s changed when I saw her in the apartment,
hand in hand with that druggie.
 
It looked as if her hair had gotten even more golden,
sparkling just as much as her light blue eyes.
 
The red dress was revealing her long, skinny legs
and perfect breasts.
 
She wasn’t as skinny as she used to be,
It was a good thing - now she looked healthy.
 
She was sexy.
And she was very well aware of that,
You could see it by the way she moved
from one man to the other,
never letting him do anything more than touch –
 
Always remaining a mystery,
a tease.
 

It was weird how happy she made me feel,
not even doing anything.
 
And it was weird how much I craved to touch her,
even when I hadn’t talked to her for two years.
 

She caught my gaze and looked me in the eyes,
then just mimicked the smile on my face.
And I wondered if she knew that I was here before.
 

Taking a cigarette from a random man,
she made her way out of the club.
 
I followed because that felt like a natural thing to do.
 
When I walked out,
she turned to me and pointed at her cigarette,
playing it cool.
 
I smiled and walked closer the girl that could rise a devil up in me.
 
I lightened her cigarette,
She looked up and inhaled.
 
“Aren’t you cold?” I asked nodding at her ripped tights and cardigan.
 
“No,” she said “I manage to keep myself.. warm”
 
“Oh, really” I smirked
 
It felt casual,
like just another fling.
 
Exept it wasn’t.
 
“Did you really follow me out to make sure I’m not feeling cold?”
 
“No, not really but”
“I’m not gonna sleep with you” she cut me off
 
“How come?” I acted surprised,
Thought we both were trying to hide the amusment
 
“I love someone” She said
“And, besides, you /did/ break my heart. I should make you suffer a bit.”
 
“What are you saying?”
 
She just smiled and shrugged,
The mystery she was.
 
The heavy metal metal door swung open and a drunk George stepped out,
“ Oi, mate!”
 
“Yeah?” I turned to him revealing my company.
“Oh, you’re not alone.. “ He whistled “Oi, but that’s Al!”
 
“Hi George” Alice said, lighting a new fag.
 
He just mumbled something and stumbled towards us.
 
George put his arm on my shoulder and started telling us his stories about the women in the club he tried to shag.
I didn’t even care to listen –
I had my eyes and ears only on the pretty girl in front of us.
 
She said “Right” and “Yeah” every once in a while,
But it was obvious that she cared about George’s stories far less than I did.
 
“Hey, Alice,” George started saying, but then he started wobbling and nearly fell down.
 
That bad drunk.
Alice giggled.
 
Putting his arm on my shoulder again, and as if nothing had happened he continued
“I haven’t seen you since… that time we… made sweet love, yeah?”
 
“You mean f.ucked?” Alice instantly replied.
“Yeah,” she said, and surprised me “I’d love to stay and chat about your fuc.ks but I have to get home to Eff”
 
And without a word,
Off she was –
Clinging her heels on the paywalk.
 
Leaving me questioning her but mostly,
wanting her.
 

Alice;
 
I knocked on the door,
And screamed for Effie to let me in.
 
I guess I should start carrying my keys with me.
 
Jack locked the door open,
“Oh, hi there” I smiled
 
“Hi Alice”
 
“Aliiiceeee!” Effie screamed behing Jack’s back.
“What are YOU doing here, stranger?”
 
“Oh, just thought I’d see if my cat’s still alive” I walked in and looked at them
 
Jack had his belt open and he held his leather jacket in his arm.
Effie was only wearing a over sized The Rolling Stones T-Shirt and Calvin Klein boxer shorts.
 
“Did I disturb your goodnight fuc.k?”
 
Jack laughed out loud and Eff blushed.
 
Effie blushed.
 
She blushed.
 
I made a face “And, by the way, that’s /my/ Stones T-Shirt”
 
Both, Jack and Effie rolled their eyes and I walked to the kitchen.
 
“Okay, babe, I’ll go now” I heard Jack say
“You can stay..”
 
“I know. But I should leave some of you to Alice. I’ll see you tomorrow” Now it was my turn to roll the eyes.
 
After a couple of minutes, when she was done kissing Jack’s face off,
Effie walked in the kitchen smiling as bright as the sushine
 
”So, everything’s good?” I asked
 
” ‘S cool” she smirked ”was better when you didn’t walk in on us”
 
”So I /did/ disturb your goodnight f.uck!”
 
She rolled her eyes, keeping it cool.
 
”But, yeah... I’m happy with him” Effie said
”Well, as long as you’re happy” I smiled
 
”Where’s Kiki?”
”And how’s everything with Nate?”
 
”I want scrambled eggs! Would you like some?” I asked
”Yes, please! I’m starving”
 
”Hot sex can do that”
”Oh, shut up!” She laughed
 
”Is Reed coming for pancakes tomorrow?”
”Probably. Why?”
”No reason”
 
She looked at me with a grin on her face
I laughed ”What?”
 
”I just never can understand what’s happening in your head, Alice Enny Wonders”
I laughed
”And why did you come home anyways?” She asked
 
”What? Now I can’t come home?”
”It’s three. In the night”
 
”I went clubbing”
”Oh. ‘s it alright?”
 
”Yeah.. Yeah, it was cool.”
 

Friday, 08.02.13 ;
 

Reed came for pancakes.
 
It was like a dance –
The way he tried not to touch Effie,
While she was dancing all over the place.
 
It was impossible for him to escape her,
And he still tried so hard.
 
Whenever he caught my gaze, I winked at him
as if saying ‘go on. He’s not here. It’s your chance’
 
I laughed when he spilled milk
And Effie would say a joke.
He would blush.
I would laugh again.
 
”Why are you so happy?” Effie asked
 
I just smiled and blew her a kiss,
She made a face at that and laughed.
 
Reed made a weird joke that I didn’t even quite understand,
And then he just continued to stuff the pancakes in his mouth.
 
I smiled at him.
 
”Alright, pretty boy” I ruffed his hair
 
”Why are you so annoying today? Usually you would be the one dreaming about killing everyone”
 
I stuck my tongue out and took my plate to wash it.
 
”That’s a pretty dress.” Effie said, looking at me with a weird look.
 
”Fanks” I cheered and spun around, letting the light floral dress and the red cardigan float around me.
 
I giggled.
Effie still had the same look on her face,
And I wasn’t sure if it’s a good look or not.
 

 
We walked to the boat hand in had with Effie,
Reed was casually following us a bit behind.
 
I would turn around and call him to walk faster,
Eff would scream ”Yea, sucker, c’mon”
And the three of us would laugh.
 
Reed was happy until we got to the boat and Eff threw her hands around Jack,
He became grumpy and unspeakable then.
 
He even commented on my ‘awfully short dress’,
So I said that he’s a ‘fu.cking idiot and a w.anker’
And went to drink with Nic.
 
Or Jill.
It still confused me.
 
What didn’t confuse me was the booze.
 
It was good.
It felt good.
 
And it was better to get drunk thank high.
But knowing New Temple – I’ll probably smoke some pot.
Or eat a brownie.
Maybe, okay, probably having some pill from Kat.
 
”C’mon, Ali” Nic mumbled
 
We got off the boat.
I saw Effie sprint with Jack, hand in hand.
And I saw Reed drinking a bottle of beer next to George, who winked at me.
 
I saw David, smiling at something his friend was telling him.
And I saw Aimee, trying hard not to look Ian in his eyes.
 

Nic or Jill took out more booze out of her bag and I laughed,
And we sat on the beach listening to five hippies.
They told us stories about how they first came to New Temple.
 
I only later noticet that Kat’s mum was there too.
And I wondered if they still don’t talk.
 
But Kat’s mum made really nice joint’s –
I couldn’t resist.
 
Each had a spark of fruit in them,
I got apple, Nic said she got oranges and a old man with funny hair got strawberries.
 
It was full of suprises.
 
It was magical.
 

When It got dark, Nic and I wanted to dance
So we left the hippies and ran trough the woods.
 
Her hair were dancing with the wind,
My hair were dancing with the wind.
 
Time after time, we would fall and laugh about it.
I scrached my tights and back,
My hair was full with leaves and branches.
 
But we made it to the gig.
There was a band playing covers of Kings of Leon’s song’s.
 
”I looooove them!” I screamed
”Me tooooo!” Nic sang.
 
Or Jill.
 

 
I was about to dance with Nic but I felt two hands grab me,
I turned and smiled at David.
 
He laughed and said something about my eyes and them floating.
 
I thought about my dress.
 
I leaned in and said ”You smell nice”
”It’s just beer and weed” He said and brushed my hair back.
 
” ‘S still nice”
 
He laughed and so did I.
 
”Well, you’re something,”
”I /am/ something” I smirked
 
I had a feeling like he’d know where it all would end,
But I felt clueless.
 
He laughed
 
”But you’re something too”
”Yeah? And what’s that?” He smirked
 
I bit my lip.
 
What was I even saying.
 

He looked at my lips.
I blinked.
 
”Would you like me to kiss you?” He asked
”I don’t know”
 
”I will”
”O-okay”
 
And he did.

athlete-wild wolwes
 
Okay, so this story is really weird
like really.
I don't think I like the way I wrote this too much,
but I haven't written for TS in FOREVER.
 
And I felt like I should include a bit of Emilys past,
u kno?
 
So you lovely people understand this chick
u kno?
 
Also, I would like you to give your thoughts
because I don't know where I'm going with this character
I guess I'm just... floating, yeah?
 
But I like her
do u?
 
And I'll be reading all of your storys tomorrow i think!
because now I need to get some sleeeeep.
and sorry, it get's really crappy at the end but gaah
 
>>>>>
 
(If you don't remeber; Emma was her sister, Paul's her brother, George (George Craig) is the british bartender she has a crush on but he has a girlfriend and blaablaa, and Jack (Adam Brody) is her brothers best friend)
 
Emily Moon;
The Struggle;
 

January 8th, 2012;
 
The cold wind blew my hair all around the place.
It was like a dance.
 
I just smiled a happy smile that felt unknown.
It's been a while since the little things made me happy,
like seeing a small puppy make people happy,
or hearing a childs laugh.
 
I hugged myself tightly
and took the paper an old man left
on the cold bench in a park that I knew every corner of.
 
The paper said that it's
january 8th,
and it made me feel a bit cold and sad
but happy too.
 
// Flashback
 
December 31st, 2009;
 
It was a usual rich kids party in California.
 
Everyone had too much to drink
thought most people were underage.
 
Even Serena, the good girl that always did her homework
and everyone's elses who was considered cool, for that matter,
was drunk and high
but just because some dou.chebag put something in her drink.
 
I saw it and I wanted to scream
and hit him everywhere.
 
But if I did it,
no one would understand
because they think that it's just funny.
 
Let go a bit, Emm,
they would say.
 
Ironic, because I'm the only one who really has /let go/
Let go of it all.
 
They act cool now,
like they don't give a dam.n about their futures,
like they wouldn't try to sneak small comments about their schools
in random conversations
And trying not to get cought when they do,
 
because they're too 'cool' to think about the future
 
We all are too cool.
 
Even Serenas hair is too cool,
long and ginger
now full with sand from the beach
and a blink with laughter from boys
that now she flirted with
but normally would bully her.
 
It made me sick.
So I just turned to the bonfire in front of me.
 
'You have weed?' I heard my best friend, Judy ask as she sat down
 
I smiled
 
'Of course you have, you fu.ck up'
 
The smile grew even wider.
 
I took it out and rolled two joints,
Judy was smiling and watching carefully.
 
She didn't want to admit it,
but she liked this stuff more than I did.
 
I handed her one joint
lightened mine
inhaled
and smiled.
 
I heard Judy cough 'Fucck, this is strong stuff'
to which I responded by shrugging my shoulders slightly.
 
I laid on my back
and so did Judy.
 
I thought about how much I didn't want to go home
How my mother would scream at me
because I'm not as perfect as my sister, Emma.
 
And Emma herself would be watching it
with a fake sad face.
 

'She went to the ocean
and jumped in the waves
and prayed the darkness would take her away
she gasped for air that wasn't there
and let the sea consume her'
 
'What is it, Jude?'
'A poet's suicide note'
'It's beautiful'
 

I felt my eyes close from exhausment
and I dreamt of the beautiful poet
that had red hair
and just let herself go in the water.
 
They only opened when Judy was screaming
 
5
 
I looked around
 
4
 
Where's Serena?
 
3
 
Where are the boys she flirted with?
 
2
 
Judy was locked in a kiss with her boyfriend
 
I felt someone grab me
 
but got out of his embrace
 
1
 
The fireworks went off
And everyone was screaming 'Happy New Year!'
And the champange was spilling
 
But where was Serena?
 
For an unknown reason,
I felt the panic rising
so I got up and ran towards the water.
 
And I saw the read poet's hair
and got in the cold water.
 
Everything was blurry.
 
And she was nowhere to be found.
 

I heard screams in the distance,
it felt messy and I wanted to get away from it.
 
I had to get her out of this.
I had to help her.
 
No one ever helped me when the senior boys drugged my drinks
they just laughed.
 

I was so cold.
 
My muscles were tired
 
Something grabbed me
and led me back to the noise
I tried to get out of the embrace
but I was too tired and cold
and I ended up just passing out.
 

January 2nd, 2010;
 
"I just can't believe you Emily!
Is this really how we raised you? DRUGS?
Why would you do this to us? Do you really hate me and your father so much?
Why do you always have to be so scandalous?
And, for Gods sakes, think of your sister! What about her reputation?
A medical student whose sister is addicted to drugs!!!!! Do you know how that sounds??"
 
My mother kept on screaming at me,
it felt like it was going on for days.
 
"How am I ever going to be able to leave the house?
What are people going to think, huh?"
 
It was funny how she kept on calling me the selfish one here
while she was saying stuff like that.
 
"What made you go in the water in the first place?" She asked me.
 
"I told you already- I thought I saw a girl drowning"
 
"Well, you should've thought better!"
 
There she was -
In her perfect Chanel suit
and perfectly done hair,
in front of her youngest child
that she claimed to be a 'druggie'
stomping her foot on a ugly rug.
 
It made me want to puke.
 
It made me want to rip off her mask
and show the entire world
that she's the big fu.ck up here.
 
But I kept on sitting there,
not really listening to her
but knowing that she kept on repeading herself,
 
and feeling as numb as ever.
 
"...sometimes I think that it would be so much better
if you weren't here. "
 
Thought this still came from the woman that clearly didn't love me,
it hurt,
 
and made me feel even number.
 

But she kept on talking,
as if she didn't just say that.
 
Just like all of the fake people around here did.
 
"I'm moving out" I heard myself say out loud.
 
It made my mother go quiet,
and I think I even saw a flash of joy in her eyes.
 
And then her face hardened -
another mask,
she was just like a chameleon.
 
"And where do you think you'll be going?
Because neither I or your father will give you any money"
 
I got up and started gathering clothes all around my room in my bag,
It felt like If i stay here any minute longer, I'll puke.
 
I heard my mother sigh,
so I walked to her and kissed her forhead.
 
She was shocked but then gathered her emotions,
just like women in Chanel suits like hers do.
 

It was quiet the whole time,
and it suprised me how easy it was.
 
As I gathered the things that I've owned my whole life -
my best and worst memories,
she just sat there watching me.
 
I thought if she was thinking about what she would say, where I went,
or did she just think about what she would do with my room -
make a closet or a little gym from it.
 
I heard her sigh again,
"I'm really not going to give you /any/ money, do you understand?
I won't even bother paying for your funeral" She said
 
"Don't worry, you're not invited anyway"
 
I closed my bag and started making my way out of the room,
stopping in the dorway I said
"I only want people who really love me at my funreal"
 

As I walked trough the house I lived in for 18 years,
it felt cold and empty.
It felt like it shouldn't be like that
so it felt right to leave this all behind.
 
"Emily!" My sister called
 
She was sitting by the fireplace in the living room,
fitting in there just perfectly.
 
"Are you really going?" She asked
 
"Yeah, Emma, I am"
 
She just nodded and pulled out a bunch of money
that I gladly took
 
"I'm assuming you're going to New York"
"Yeah"
"Get in that school, okay? And call Jack, he's probably going to let you stay at his place"
 
I hugged my older sister and understood that
after all, she's going to be the only thing I'll miss
from this cold house.
 
"Be careful"
"yeah"
 
"Bye then, Em"
"Bye, Emma"
 
And with two smiles,
out I was.
 
In the 'real world'.
 

January 8th, 2010;
 

It took me longer to get here than I thought,
since I was hitchhiking to save the money.
 
But, here I was,
New York, New York.
 
And I felt butterflies, excitement and energy -
it felt like I could do just about anything.
 
I walked to the Central Park
and was amazed by the people,
who didn't give a cr.ap about what I do.
It made me smile.
 
I phoned Jack,
he was a little suprised
but said that he would help me out
and I could stay at his place.
 

I found myself at a bar
that was half empty.
 
And a british bartender and I had a lovely conversation,
he laughed about my excitement for the city,
and how I said I wanted to be a designer.
 
And just like that,
he became my first friend in
New York City.
 

 
- Em Moon

lana del rey - cola
 

 

this set is just as artistic-ish/sad/deep i get okay

coldplay- hurts like heaven
 
i tried to do something new with this set
so yeah
 
anyways, i was tagged by @art-fashion-me a while ago
 
and i tag everyone who likes this set because most people i know have already been tagged and, yeah, if you haven't-
hey, make a set and let's do this tagging stuff together haha
i'll be happy to see your set
 
: )
 
--
 
1. Your boy side
 
[x] You love hoodies.
[ ] You love jeans.
[ ] Dogs are better than cats.
[x] It’s hilarious when people get hurt.
[ ] Shopping is torture
[ ] Sad movies suck
[ ] You own a car racing game
[x] You played with hot wheels cars as a kid.
[x] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[x] You owned a ds, ps2, n64, or sega.
[x] You used to be obsessed with power rangers.
[x] You have watched sports on tv.
[x] Gory movies are cool.
[ ] You go to your dad for advice.
[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
[ ] You used to collect hockey cards.
[x] Baggy sweats are cool to wear.
[ ] It’s kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[x] Sports are fun.
[ ] You talk with food in your mouth.
[ ] You sleep with your socks on at night.
[x] You have fished at least once.
 

2. Your girl side
 
[x] You love to shop.
[x] You wear eyeliner.
[x] You wear the colour pink.
[ ] You go to your mum to talk.
[x] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[ ] You hate wearing the color black.
[x] You like going to the mall.
[ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[x] You like wearing jewelry.
[x] You cried watching "The Notebook"
[x ] Dresses are a big part of your wardrobe.
[ ] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[ ] You don’t like the movie Star Wars.
[x ]You are/were in gymnastics.
[x] It takes you around one hour to shower, get dressed, and make-up.
[ ] You smile a lot more than you should.
[ ] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] You care about what you look like.
[x] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[x]You like wearing high heel shoes.
[x ] You used to play with dolls as little kid.
[ ] You like putting make-up on others.
[ ] You like being the star of everything.
 
3. Appearance
 
[x] I am shorter than 5′5″.
[ ] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different colour.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have a tattoo.
[x ] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I’ve had/have braces.
[x ] I've been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than two piercings.
[x ]I have/had piercings in places besides my ears.
 
4. Experiences
 
[ ] I’ve gotten lost in my city.
[x] I’ve seen a shooting star.
[x] I’ve wished on a shooting star.
[x] I’ve seen a meteor shower.
[x] I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x ] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I’ve been to a casino.
[ ] I’ve been skydiving.
[x ] I’ve gone skinny-dipping.
[ ] I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I’ve crashed a car.
[x] I’ve been skiing.
[ ] I’ve been in a musical.
[x] I’ve caught a snowflake or snow on my tongue.
[ ] I’ve seen the northern lights.
[x] I’ve sat on a rooftop at night.
[x] I’ve played a prank on someone.
[x] I’ve ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I’ve seen the rocky horror picture show.
[x] I’ve eaten sushi.
[ ] I’ve been snowboarding.
 
5. Relationships
 
[x] I’m single.
[ ] I’m in a relationship.
[ ] I’m engaged.
[ ] I’m married.
[ ] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I’ve gotten divorced.
[x ] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[ ] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
[ ] I’ve been in love/am in love.
 

6. Honesty/Crime
 
[x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve snuck out
[x] I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I’ve cheated while playing a game.
[x] I’ve ran a red light.
[x] I’ve witnessed a crime.
[ ] I’ve been in a fist fight.
[x] I’ve been arrested.
 
*(badass hahaha) is this really that bad
 
7. Death and suicide
 
[x ] I’m afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[x] I’ve seen someone/something dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted/committed suicide.
[x] I’ve planned my own suicide before.
[ ] I’ve written a eulogy for myself.
 
8. Random
 
[ ] I can sing.
[ ] Stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x ] I open up to others easily.
[x ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don’t kill bugs.
[ ] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[x ] I paid for a cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ]I twirl my hair.
[x] I care about grammar.
[ x] I have “?”’s in my screen name.
[ ] I’ve copied more than 30 cd’s in a day.
[ ] I bake well.
[x ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red, blue, black, purple, or orange.
[x ] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like martha stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes cause they’re funny
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an a in a certain class.
[ ] I can’t sleep if there is a spider/cockroach in the room.
[x ] I am ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[ ] I’m good at remembering faces.
[x] I’m good at remembering names.
[ ] I’m good at remembering dates.
[ ] I honestly have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] All my answers were totally honest.

WHAT TO DO:
Answer these questions and tag 20 people.Tag me in the set if you do it!

Lana Del Rey-Burning Desire
 
//stupid item limit.
 
I feel like this song is perfect to describe Alice's and Nate's feelings for eachother.
So if you're wondering what I'm trying to do here, listen to it. hehehe.
 
Also,
I saw King Charles on New Years eve for the second time (and it was really amazing but yeah) and some of his songs I've been listening to remind me of my Ali, so yeah
Listen to them if you wanna understand this crazy girl, yeah
;
King Charles- Beating Hearts /// this is how Nathan feels heh
King Charles-Polar Bear /// THIS is how Ali is hehehe
King Charles-Love lust /// This song kinda represents how everything is between the two of them when everything is okay. (More like, before New Temple)
 
AND NOW everything's more like Lana's Burning Desire.
 
This isn't that long because I'm planning to write a part two tomorrow or so.
I just wanted to keep you guys updated.
And let you know that shit's gonna go down haha.
I'm really excited about the next story already!
And I still don't have school so I have time to write! eep
 
oh, and i tried to include a bit of everyone, but it's hard considering i'm not really sure who's in this, u kno.
There are only like five or six girls that are active :O
but, anyways,
 
@mclovinn
@emgeemtee
@vampire-weakend
 
PART 1
 
--
 
Alice Wonders
{TWC}
 
thursday, december 27th;
 
An awful and ugly sound woke me up,
It was a sound of an old and rusty alarm clock that wasn't mine.
 
I had no idea where I was or why I was there
But, when I reached out I felt Nathans warm touch on my skin, so I didn't freak out.
I never did when he was besides me.
 
Sometimes, I thought of him as my cure because, when I'm with him everything seemed to be okay.
I didn't freak out about situations that I normaly would.
 
When I was alone and would see someone fighting, I would start panicing,
But when I'm with him, I would start laughing and enjoying the horrible view that somehow turned funny.
Maybe that was because for most of the occasions, he was the one to start the fight. And somehow, he always got away with it.
 
When I opened my eyes, I saw that we weren't the only ones in this cold and ugly bed,
There were three more people, who I hadn't even seen before.
All of our legs were tangled together as if we'd be the best of friends who just had a innocent slumber party.
 
It was ridiculous to even think that because you could sense the smell of booze and drugs.
 

I got out of the bed,
struggling not to wake anyone up
thought they wouldn't care if I did.
 
I saw a black haired girl with a huge tattoo of a bird on her arm,
hug Nathan tightly.
 
I slightly winced at the view of that
and lit the joint that I found on the table next to the bed.
 
"Fuc.king wh.ore"
 
I inhaled deeply,
it burned,
I smiled.
 

I knelt besides the bed
and looked at the black haired girls arm.
The tattoo must've hurt a lot.
 
Inhale
Exhale
 
My fingers danced lightly on her coloured arm,
her skin was as soft as I remembered my old dresses to be,
The pink and soft ones.
The ones that made me look light and careless.
 
Inhale
 
I dragged my fingers to the birds eye on her arm,
and put the part of the joint that was on fire where the birds eye was.
 
She vinced a little, moaned
and took her hand off Nathan.
 
Exhale
I smiled.
 
My arm was still in the air,
where the girls had been
when I felt someone grab it roughly.
 
I looked at Nathan,
with his smug grin on his lips,
and smiled a smile that was unfamiliar
but I had a feeling that it'd be a guest that would appear often now.
And maybe it would even stay there forever.
 
"What are you doing, huh?" Nathan asked.
 
I didn't reply,
just smiled a smile that was even more wicked.
 
I pushed the unknown people away and sat on Nathan
and smiled.
 
I knew what I wanted now
And so did he.
 
I leant in for a kiss,
and he gripped me tightly.
 
"C'mon, let's get you home" He said after breaking the kiss.
 
He meant his small apartment,
he still didn't know about my big house.
I thought it was funny.
Maybe I thought so only because I've been on something for the longest time.
But it was funny.
 
I shook my head.
 
"Well, now, now, princess, we don't want company, do we now?"
 
"Let's go somewhere" I whispered in his ear.
 

"Where?"
 
"Shower"
 
I got up and made my way through the unknown apartment,
I didn't have to look back to know that Nate was following.
 
I found the bathroom
and two people that came with it.
They were asleep in the tub.
 
I looked back and saw Nathan leaning against the wall,
And the wicked smile found it's way back to my lips.
 
I picked up a half empty rum bottle and threw it against the wall,
the noise woke them up.
 
The girl will later find pieces of glass in her long blonde hair.
 
The couple looked at me puzzled
"Well, fuc.k out then" I said.
 
The boy started saying something,
but then he saw Nathan standing behind me
and closed his mouth,
took the girl by his hand and walked off.
 

I turned to Nate and let out a crazy laugh
maybe he didn't like the sound of it as much as I did
so he made it stop by kissing me passionately.
 
I threw my legs around his waist as he made his way with his tongue along my neck.
 
I moaned
He smiled
 
Flash.
 
He took off my black t-shirt and I unzipped his pants.
 
Flash.
 
He put me on the edge of the bath and slipped my black panties off.
 
Flash.
 
I heard screams outside,
someone was smashing bottles
and screaming hysterically.
 
Flash.
 
I wondered whether it's the girl with the bird tattoo on her arm
or the girl that had glass in her hair.
 
I smiled
 
Flash.
 
"I've got a burning desire for you, baby" I whispered in Nate's ear.
 
Flash
Flash
Flash
 

 
Nate bathed me.
I felt numb for a unknown reason.
Five minutes ago, I was smiling and fuc.king.
 
But now the beautiful moment had gone.
 
"I'm worried about you, Ali"
 
I looked up at him and smiled a little.
He leant over and kissed me lightly.
 
He helped me get out of the bathtub
and dressed me.
 
I just stood there and smiled at him whenever he looked at me.
Because I didn't want him to worry about me.
 
"C'mon, let's go, my love" he said after he put on me my big gray sweater and black tights.
 
"Okay" I said and took his arm lightly.
 
Thought I felt the dakness' cold breath on my back,
I won't let him know that there are demons after me.
 
We were just about to go out,
back in the cold night air
through the kichen door,
when a voice called for Nathan.
 
As I turned to see who he was,
Nathan said "hei, mate" and walked to him,
letting my hand fall out of his.
 
But the blonde boy didn't look at Nate. He looked directly at me.
 
There they were, the blue eyes I've thought about so much for the first year of travelling.
Of being lost.
And lonely.
 
There he was, the boy that broke all of my dreams with his tough words.
Sitting in a place he didn't fit in.
 
David.
Fuc.king David.
 
"I haven't seen you in New Temple, " I heard Nathan say
 
"Yeah, I've been out of the country for a bit. But I'm back now" David replied, looking at me.
 
I was gripping the end of my jumper, not knowing what to do.
 
A girl walked out.
And I slipped out the door with her.
 
And as I thought about the boy I used to love and the boy I love talking right now,
it didn't feel so cold anymore.
 
I laughed.
And ran home.
 

 
When I got to my house, the door was locked
so I knocked.
 
It felt weird,
As if I were an intruder.
 
Which I kinda was,
considering I only came here when Nathan was busy
or I felt especially lost.
 
I heard Effie come downstairs
I knocked again
and took the pills that I've been hiding in my boots.
 
"Hey there stranger," she said, letting me in
"hey" I smiled.
And for the first time time today, I smiled a smile that I could call mine.
And it made me feel like home.
 

I looked at her,
in her underwear and a mans' shirt.
 
"You have company?"
"Only my bike and Kiki, babe"
 
I smirked
 
"What?" she laughed
 
"Is Reed comming over later?"
 
"I don't know, he might.."
 
"mmmhm"
 
She just laughed and threw a pillow from the couch
 
"It's not like that and you know it" she said
 
"Oh, and that's why you're walking half naked around the house, I see"
 
"I feel more comfortable this way"
 
"Mmmmmhm"
 
"Alice! You're killing me"
 
I smiled and laid down on the floor,
our cat sat on my tummy.
 
I laughed.
 
Effie laid besides me.
 
"I like this song" I said, thought nothing was playing
 
"Me too."
 

friday, december 28th;
 

Today my only goal was not to find myself at my old bungalow
and try not to have a mental breakdown
and not to scare everyone away from me.
 
It's as easy as that.
huh
 
"Heyyyy" A giggly Nicole called
 
I smirked
 
"Well, someone's had too much vodka in their tea this morning"
 
"Shhh, I don't even drink tea!"
 
"That doesn't suprise me, babes"
 
She took out a black bottle that I gladly drank
I felt instantly warmer
 
"Where is your lover?" She asked
 
"You're my lover!" I said giggling and hugging her
 
"Hey!" Kat called from the other side of the boat "No love making without me"
 
"Well, c'mon then, let's all make looooooveee" I screamed
 
Then Kat joined in our hug
and so did Eff
and Aimee
 
And we were all laughing and drinking the booze from Nic's black bottle.
And I felt my little pills kick in.
And it was beautiful.
 
"Hey," Eff nudged me "I like this song too"
 
I Laughed "Yeah, it's really good. Let's turn it up!"
 
And we all danced to a song that no one heard
but everyone knew.
 
And a blonde blue eyed boy was watching me this whole time,
a small smirk on his lips.
 
As if he'd know.
 
I wanted to punch him in the face,
and scream,
and call him names.
 
But instead, I just drank from the black bottle Nic gave us.
 
But my mind was full of thought of the blonde guy
watching me.
 
It felt wrong because I should've been thinking about a different guy
that was nowhere to be found on the boat today.
 

+ alice wonders.
 
don't remember who David was?
-http://www.polyvore.com/darling_how_loved_you_from/set?id=28807111&lid=798073
and gosh, my writing was so sh.itty back then but, hey, we all have to start somewhere, right? :D

just,
hey
 
how was your nev years?
mine was a blast hehehe.
 
and this year was quite interesting too.
I've had my up's and down's, but, overall everything was quite good.
I've met a lot of interesting and lovely people,
I've learnt about things.. thought sometimes, the hard way
 
but it was good
yeah

lana del rey-this is what makes us girls
 
hey,
Merry Christmas, guys!
 
my Christmas present for you is.....
suprise, suprise, a TWC story! :D
 
How was your Christmas?
Mine was quite good hehe 
Anyways, you're here ror the story so..
 
---
 
{Alice Wonders
The Weekend Club}
 
friday, december 21st;
 
It's been a while since New Temple was opened again.
 
I hated it.
It was full of people I didn't know anymore. Everyone had their fake smiles on and they greeted everyone like they were long lost friends. 
Which they were.
Which /we/ were. But it didn't feel like it.
 
The funny part is, Nathan has been so busy organazing everything for New Temple that he didn't even bother to notice how fuc.king miserable I was here.
 
He and some of his friends were sending confidential letters all over the world to the original New Temple people. He called them his family. "You'll love them'', He said.
it was ironic because I already fell inlove with them. And I got my heart broken.
 
What made it even funnier was that he sent me one of those letters too. 
 
If these all people, me included, were your so called awesome family, aren't you supposed to know who they all were?
 
Sometimes, I hated him for that.
And then I started loving him even more.
I didn't even know someone could love another person so much and for such strange reasons.
"It must be this place," I kept telling myself "it's what's giving me these strange emotions"
 
I hadn't even told Nate about the big house I owned. Or my bungalow in New Temple. I mean, I could have told him but  I just didn't see the point of it.
 
What would he say?
Would he joke about it?
Would he even care?
And what if he hated me for that?
/I/ hated myself for what I used to be.
 
He probably has heard about the little, sick, skinny alice. wandering around the woods with nowhere and no one to go to.
 
So dark.
Everything's so dark
 
"No, stop it. Don't go back there." I whispered to myself, wrappimg my arms tightly around myself.
 
"What did ya say, Ali?" Nathans arms appeared on mine, holding me tightly.
"what, nothing. You startled me"
 
I started feeling warmen
and lighter
so much lighter.
 
Nate just kissed my hair as I looked at the waves.
I've never felt so much like home.
 

I felt excitement and fear as we climbed off the boat. 
For the past few weeks, I've felt these feelings every weekend, every time i'm here
Back in New Temple, again.
 
I felt people staring and waving my way so I put up my hoody and started making way to my bungalow.
 
"Hey, where are you going?" I felt two hands slip on my waist again "my place is the other way"
 
I just smiled.
Every week, I did this and I've promised myself I won't but my bungalow is like a magnet.
 
"So, are you gunna meet up with Nic- i meant Jill. Looked like you guys were getting along last week."
That was a mistake I made last weekend. I was high and giggly and it felt right to just go up to her and get wasted. It was only in the morning when I understood that it wasn't 2010 anymore. And we were no longer friends, really.
"Yeah," I lied
 
"Alice!" I heard a giggly voice call. A voice that belonged to no other than Effie Ellwood. I knew her. But we weren't exactly the best of buds.
I shot a quick look at Nathan.
He was just standing there with a smirk on his lips, looking as coc.ky as ever.
 
"Yeah, and you're Effie, right? From last week?" I said, putting an emphasis on the last part.
She looked a bit startled and weirded out but still said "Yeah, sure. Hi, Nathan"
"hey, Eff. I'm gonna leave you lovely ladies alone now, I have some business to attend to." He walked off but not before smashing his  hand against my bum
"Au!"
"You know you love it, babe" he shouted and joined some of his friends by the bonfire with a laugh
 
Effie just looked at me.
 
"Well, c'mon then, If you want to know about it, you at least have to buy me a drink"
She smiled and we made our way to the bar.
I've always liked Effie. Two years ago, I thought that she was just a breathing, walking charming secret.
I still do, to be honest.
 
But who would've thought that, out of all people here, she'd be the one I'd share my secret with.
 
When I told her, she laughed a bit.
I drank my spiced drink.
"Don't tell" she said more to herself
"I wasn't going to but, you know, bumping into people like this isn't really helping"
she laughed at that
 
"well, if it helps, I won't tell"
"It helps"
 
We were a bit tipsy and it was getting dark outside so we said our goodbyes and made our way home.
 
Weirdly enough, I found myself in front of my old bungalow.
 
And I just stood there,
not ready to go in, and, yet, not able to leave.
 
It was dark and the cold winter air was pounding against my face. 
 
I felt the darkness approaching.
And I was scared.
 
After a while, it felt useless to just stand there.
After all, it's just a house.
 
But when I walked in and felt the sweet smell of strawberries and weed, it didn't feel like just a house. It felt like a time machine.
 
The darkness was near.
 
When I turned on the light, I felt a bit sickened and shocked.
I had almost forgot how obsessed I was with my weight.
almost.
 
These walls brought all of the memories back.
 
I walked closer
and closer
 
I heard a scream somewhere in the distance
Or was that my cry?
 
I stepped on a broken glass
But none of it mattered.
 
/'SKINNY'/ I read
 
/FAT COW
 
you're not a ballerina, alice
 
Get if off!
 
Get it  off of me!
 
get beautiful
 
skinny
 
Get it off!
 
Help me
 
Please
 
Get it off of me!!!
 
Get it off!/
 
I didn't even notice when I started ripping it all of, ripping it in peaces or when i collapsed on the floor.
 
The darkness was hugging me tightly
And I was scared that it'll never leave.
 
"Get it off of me!" I cried
 
"Get it off"
 
"Please"
 
"Get it off of me!"
 
"GET IT OFF!!!"
 
and then, I became the darkness. 
It was all over me.
 
I only got out of it when I felt something or someone shaking my body awake.
And calling my name.
 
Kat.
Kittty Kat.
And Nicole.
Now Jill.
 
Kat had tears in her eyes
 
"Why are you crying?"
"We heard you, we were outside and then you just blanked out."
 
Now I remembered.
The darkness.
The cold.
 
I shivered and looked around.
 
"Why are you looking like that?" Jill asked
 
My eyes grew wider and wider.
 
/No, it can't be
They all were just here/
 
"What happened to the papers? The notes? Where did you put them?"
"What papers? there is nothing here"
 
I got up and looked around, under the bed, in the cupboard.
They were nowhere to be found.
 
I turned to face them.
Kat looked so perfect.
And so did Jill.
Both always so pretty and lovable.
 
"Where did you put them? They were just here!" I yelled
"what are...."
 
I was tired of their lies
Their fairytales
So I stormed out. Away from them and away from chances for them to hurt me.
 
It felt like someone was laughing at me.
So I started running faster
and faster
and further
further
 
until I heard the laugh of Effie.
So I walked to her.
 
And she smiled at me.
So I asked if she's still looking for a place to live.
She said yes.
I said that she doesn't anymore,
It made her laugh but she still said "Okay, Alice"
And the boy next to her laughed.
 
And I felt little and crazy in front of them
as if they knew,
but it felt okay.
 
So I smiled my coc.ky smile and left.
The darkness backed off.
 
"It's gonna be okay"
 

monday, december 24th;
 
I was in my old home.
My grandmothers house.
 
It felt good to be here.
 
For the past two days I've been wandering around,
looking for ... i don't even know what.
But I've found it here, in my house.
It finally feels peaceful and good.
 
Thought Nathan was ringing me like crazy for the past days,
I haven't talked to him since I kissed and left him on the island on saturday.
 
I didn't even check the messages he sent me,
just typed
 
'I'm ok. With girls. Gunna be back tomorrow. love u'
he didn't reply.
 
There was knocking on the door.
Well, it sounded more like someone hitting a bottle against the door.
 
So I got up,
straightened my shirt
and went to answer the door.
 
And found no other than Kat and Jill in front of them.
 
My heart started pounding like crazy,
Maybe it was because of the booze I saw in Jill's hands.
Or maybe it was because of the pills  I knew Kat had.
But, maybe it was because of my long missed friends standing right in front of me.
 
"uhm...hello?" I said.
"We got you a present!" Kat said, happily pointing to the pain tree behind them
"Was pretty hard to get it here too so you have no other choice but to let us in" Jill said.
 
"Yeah, I don't know about that"
"C'mon, Ali, we know that you're mad at us. That's why we brought this tree. As a settlement present"
 
Kat was playing with her feet.
"And what if I don't want it?"
She looked up from the ground
"But we're friends"
 
"Yeah, friends don't leave without saying goodbye"
"But you left too!"
"Just because I had no one here!"
 
It fell silent.
Neither of us said a word.
we all had tears in our eyes,
thought we were struggling to keep them in there.
 
And at that moment,
you could feel our fuc.ked up life storys on the air,
our crazy minds,
and our loving hearts.
 
"Sorry"
"I'm sorry"
"I didn't mean to"
"shh"
"It's gunna be fine, okay?"
 
The words just flew out
and our hands flew around eachother
gripping tightly,
for friendships that we didn't want to lose.
 
Jill was the first to let go
"As much as I love this, it's starting to get cold" 
"Yeah"  I said.
 
"so, can we take the tree in?" Kat asked, 
 
I just nodded,
too emotional to talk straight.
 
We took the tree in, 
Jill passed the vodka bottle she was holding,
Kat passed the pills,
I rolled the joints.
 
And we all smiled and felt our friendship dance around the room.
 
Soon enough, we joined it.
 
Since I didn't have any Christmas decors to put on the tree,
Jill put a joint in it,
Kat put a flower headband
and I put a old, pretty  leave in it.
 
"Hey, did you hear that?" Kat asked, when she stopped dancing.
 
Jill sat down on the carped cross legged and I put my head in her lap.
She rolled a joint on my forehead.
It made me giggle.
 
"guys, seriously," Kat repeated
"Kat, it's just the nargles talking!"
"Nonono, not this time" She said as she went to the door.
 
"meow"
Jill and I started laughing 
 
"Kat, have you started meowing?"
"Nooo, but, Alice, I think you own a cat now" She said as she brought in a grey cat.
 
We laughed.
We were too high to even care or bother thinking about how the cat got in.
 
"oh, okay"
"What are you going to call him?"
"uh, Jesus?"
"It's a girl!"
"I don't know.....Cat....Like, Kiki?"
 
Kat smiled "Yes, that's a perfect name. Now, Kiki, let's dance!"
 
And dance we did.
And Kiki was lovely.
So soft and pretty.
 
And soon enough, we noticed that the joint Jill put in the Christmas tree was on fire
And so was the tree
 
And then there was fire 
and water
and panic
and laughter
 
and we talked about Zane's preggo girlfriend
and Jill was weirded out
and Kat and I knew that she felt scared and broken so we gave her the love we could give.
 
Kat  asked me "How's love?"
And I said that it's just how love is. Stupid but yet so lovely.
 
and then we slept on the carpet, under a burned down Christmas tree.
 

 
I heard footsteps,
 
and as I looked up, I saw Effie standing there,
with bags on the ground
 
"what the fuc.k" was all she said
 
"oh, and we have a cat"
 

+ alice wonders
 

"This is what makes us girls
We all look for heaven and we put our love first
Somethin' that we'd die for, it's our curse
Don't cry about it, don't cry about it
This is what makes us girls
We don't stick together 'cause we put our love first
Don't cry about him, don't cry about him
It's all gonna happen"
 
@vampire-weakend @emgeemtee @mclovinn heyyyyy girlsssss hehe

muse-panic station
my fave from the new album
or is it
hehehehe
 

a couple nights ago, i saw Muse live.
let me just tell you, it was the most amazing thing
the show was so amazing,
they were so amazing,
everything was just wow!
 
and me and a bunch of friends were so close the stage
so close to themmmmmmmm
hehehe
fangirling
 
i had a blast, really.
 
did i tell you that it was really amazing already?
well, it fucking was!
 
in fact,
@vampire-weakend hey, can i come to florida on february so we could see them together
and then i could go to whatever place they'll go next to
and the next one
and so on and on and on.
because you can never get too much of muse.
 
THEY WERE SO FUCKING AMAZING, EEEP
 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OVlcjb-52IY

figure 8 - ellie goulding
 
i'm gonna see her live in april
hehehe
life's nice yeah
 

anyways,
 

{The Weekend Club}
 
guys, remember alice?
crazy, right?
 
oh, i'm changing the model from Dakota Fanning to Skye Stracke
 
ok?
cool.
 

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Alice Wonders
 
- 20
 
(you'll find the old bio here http://www.polyvore.com/sooner_later_in_life_things/set?id=27674702 )
 
When New Temple closed, Alice didn't really have anywhere to go. All of her so called friends disappeared. No one answered their phones, and no one called. She felt broken and out of place.
 
Since everyone was going through some life changing bu.lIshit, she thought that she could do the same. So she changed from her floral dress to a black one, took all of the money she could get from her grandmothers bakery and left. She didn't know where she was going or what she was looking for.
 
She thought that, maybe if she would get out of Dublin, she would find herself. But, months went by and countrys were oversearched but she felt even more broken than before. For a year, all that she got from the endless visits in random mens' beds' all over Europe, were free drinks and places she could stay in.
 

 
When she was in some little town in Italy, listening to an old english mans story about his wife and the lovely pancakes she makes, she met Nathan. And, turns out that he was the key for Ali at finding herself.
 
They both went to London to live in Nathans flat and just, love eachother.
 
Thought they were having the most amazing time, having fun with Nate's friends, drinking, laughing and partying most of their days away, Alice still didn't feel quite home.
 
Thought she doesn't admit it because she thought that in some way, her New Temple friends betrayed her, she really misses Dublin and everything that comes with it.
 

 
But if she came back,
 
would everything go back to normal?
 

 
Model ; Skye Stracke
 
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Nathan Sheenan ;
 
22
 
Thought he's quite coc.ky and outgoing, he's a quite loving man. Ali charmed him and, truth be told, Nate did the same for her.
 
Alice hasn't told him anything about New Temple, but turns out that Nathan knows about it himself. And he's actually helping to get New Temple up and running again.
 
So, he's basically throwing Ali back in Dublin with the people that she doesn't have the best relationships with anymore
 
( idk, i'm sh.it at making bio's )
 
Model ; Robert Sheehan
 

 
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oh, yeah, and this thingy
 

 

 
- nickname [if any] ; Ali
- family members ; both her parents died in a outocrash three years ago. The only family member alive is her grandmother, Sophie, but she's been somewhere in Africa for the last two years.
- describe your room [in dublin or new temple] ; her room two years ago looked completly opposite like it does now. it used to be very clean, organised and light. Now it's pretty dark and there are always empty alcohol bottles that you can step on.
- way of speaking ; her way of speaking used to be quite posh, but it's complitly changed in these past two years. She likes to use the word 'fu.ck' a lot. Plus, she's quite sarcastic and you never know when she's speaking for real and when not.
- physical characteristics [posture, gestures, attitude, etc.] ; her posture is perfect-that's because of the many years in ballet lessions. You'll never see her slumping, that's for sure.
- items in their pockets ; a white lighter, golden marlborros, her mothers wedding ring, no money at all
- hobbies ; drinking and smoking, and sex, and dancing. and watching people.
- favorite sports ; swimming, dancing and running
- talents, abilities, etc ; she can put both of her legs behind her head (eh) and cross her tongue
- relationships [how they are with other people] ; she doesn't like to admit it, but she really likes people and hates being alone, so Ali's always gonna try to keep the conversation. But, she doesn't even need to do that, because, somehow, people (especially strangers) are intrigued about her and want to talk to her till the end of time. Some say she's like a drug.
- fears ; death and ghosts
- faults ; she still thinks that her parents died because of her - the car crashed when they were on their way to see Alice preform ballet on the big stage.
 
- what they want more than anything else ; to finally be happy and just live life.
 

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i spent a reallllyyyyy long time trying to find
the 'bad word' that made poly cry.
 
sometimes i hate you, pol